Wednesday, December 22, 2010

I don't give up, I just take a break.

My last post I talked about my new exercise plan... again. I have "taken a break" from it... again. I Get SO motivated and then all of a sudden something happens to throw me off track.

I have not been following Jackie Warners diet plan no matter how AWESOME I think it is and how much I WANT to be able to do it. I WANT to be able to chop up all my veggies and make all my egg and bag oatmeal for the week- I do I really do. Then Sunday comes around and I... I... I don't even have an excuse I'm just lazy. Can you fix lazy? If so, please tell me how.

Then there's the exercising. I actually was OK with exercising int he morning- I felt better throughout the day. Then one more I over slept and it snow balled fromt here. It is SO HARD for me to wake up early. Some people can just do it because they are awesome. I, however, am lazy. Working out after work is just out of the question, my baby girl is still awake for a few hours when I get home and I want to spend it with her- not exercising then recovering for an hour then showering then damnit it's time for her night routine.

So basically anyone coming to this blog for a good review of a diet/exercise plan isn't going to find what they are looking for. There are no fast, long lasting results with me. Yet. I'll still be updating as I go from one plan to the next and hopefully along the way I will find something that works.

That's what it's all about, right? Finding something that works and sticking to it. I hope I find that "something" soon.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Week 2 and ta-da!!!

So it's week two of my proclaimed new healthy life and... last week was a fail. I forgot that my BFF and I had plans to go to Bluemercury, our favorite boutique's Holiday party and catch some drink afterwards. There was no way I wasn't going to fully enjoy this night so I broke my diet in several ways. The next day I woke up feeling awful and the rest of the week through the weekend I was sick. I am hoping to get back on the horse for a good work out tomorrow morning and hopefully the rest of the week. I didn't weigh myself this morning due to running super late for work (even though I managed to make it in with a few minutes to spare) but my pants still feel a bit too tight for comfort. I have my honeymoon in a few months and I need to keep drilling in my head how awful I'll feel if my body looks the way it does now.

On another note, notice anything different??? I decided to give my blog a makeover with the help and talent of Becca from Jumping Jax Designs! She is super sweet and was really amazing to work with, no matter how nit-picky I was :)

I think it's absolutely fabulous, how do you like my new look???

Monday, December 6, 2010

Day 1 on The Road to a Better Healthier Me.

Today is my start to a new, better, healthier me. My Inspiration? Jackie Warner's book "This is Why You're Fat." Jackie outlines a diet and exercise program that is effective and simple enough to be sustainable for more than just a few weeks. I wanted to follow her plan exactly to the "T" however; I haven't ventured in the protein shake and creatine arena. I feel like eating healthy (as she suggests) will be enough for ME and I won't need the extra shakes and vitamins. I mean maybe I'll buy some vitamins next grocery shopping trip, I suppose it couldn't hurt but it wasn't one of my priorities.

SO let's get to the good stuff. It's all about numbers so I need to give you guys my stats. I went back and fourth about whether or not I wanted to post them, but then I realized if people don't see the numbers and see the progress it's really just a bunch of fluff. I stepped on the scale and measured myself this morning pre-workout:

Weight: 126.5

Chest: 35.5

Waist: 28

Hips: 35.5

Bicep: 9.5

Thigh: 22

I wanted to take a before picture, but just didn't have the time.

For the next two weeks I will be doing 20 minutes workouts on the Elliptical. Per Jackie's book here's the work out:

3 minutes moving fast incline between 1-5
3 minutes incline 5+
1 minute lowering incline to between 1-5 moving at a comfortable pace

Repeat three times (OK so that equals 21 but you get the idea)

Today was the first time I had tried that specific work out and boy oh boy did it make a difference.

Now exercise isn't the only change I am making. I am also eating better (Hopefully thsi will stick). Here is my meal plan for today- I wanted to create one for the week but... baby steps.

Breakfast: 2 eggs (was suppose to also have oatmeal but I was running late)

Morning Snack: Apple

Lunch: Baby spinach and red tomato salad with turkey and part-skim mozzarella cheese

Afternoon Snack: Yellow peppers

Dinner: Grilled chicken and a yam. I will also have to add in some oatmeal because I need to eat one cup of it a day.

Another big part of the new diet is no caffeine (AHHH) and drinking water with lemon juice (YUM) so I have a big water bottle filled with water and a fresh squeezed lemon.

Are you starting a new diet/exercise program? What are some of the things you are doing to make your lifestyle healthier?

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Have you thought about adding an outfit of the day (OOTD) section to your blog? That would be fun to read about.

I have thought about it, and think it's a great idea! I will probably start doing posts like that in the new year.

Ask me anything

Day Two

I did it again! I woke up and got on the elliptical before work this morning!

I'm not sure if I will update EVERDAY but today I was really excited because:

1) I "ellipticalled" a mile 1 minute and 30 secdonds quicker than I did yesterday


It makes me feel like this could be do-able. We'll see after three weeks if I still have the same motivation :)

A few things I'm concerned about:

1) Pushing myself. I am notorious for taking the easy way out, and not pushing myself. How do you push yourself?

2) Consistancy. I am also notorious for not finishing what I started. I am hoping to to make this a life style change instead of a temporary thing. For those that have been exercising daily for awhile how do you keep it consistant?

Also anyone out there strictly use an elliptical? How are your workouts? Any tips or trick of the trade you can offer up?

I am always open to suggestions so don't hesitate to reach out!

Monday, November 29, 2010

Day One of Pre-Week

Long story short (and I will get the the long story at some point) I went back to work in August. I got what I thoguth was my dream job.... oh boy was I wrong. My job was very high stress and so time consuming I didn't eat very much and ended up losing a bunch of weight- but not in a healthy way. Three months later I had enough of it and found a new job- one that doesn't have me in tears before the work day begins, and also one that allows me time to eat. I gained all of my weight back and would really like to try this whole be healthy thing again. It's important to me and I need to start making it a higher priority.

This bring me to "Pre-Week." The week before I actually start my diet and exercise program. I'm jumpin' back on the Jackie Warner "This is Why You're Fat" bandwagon, and hoping to do it right this time. After this weeks grocery shopping trip I will have all the proper food to eat and will be able to follow the plan more correctly.

The pre-week is my way of not allowing myself to spend ANOTHER week indulging and not working out. Since I don't have everything I need to properly follow Jackie's program I decided I'd spend this week doing what I could and hopefully preparing myself for pre-work, work outs every morning. I am not dieting this week- so I don't expect this to add towards any weight loss, but the sooner I can get into a routine of working out in the morning the better.

So day one- I already woke up giving my self excuses " the baby woke you up int he middle of the night it's OK if you don't do it" "You're already a 1/2 hour behind you might be late for work, it's OK if you do do it" "Just do ten minutes" Just do 15 minutes" and so on. For some reason, today I was able to overcome those objections and push through a 20 minute work out on the Ellipical. I may not be able to do it everyday, but I did it today and that is worth something.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thankful :)

This is by far one of my favorite days of the year, the parade, the food, tradition, warm fuzzies- I love it all. It's amazing to reflect on all of the things I have in my life and take some time to be thankful for it.

I am thankful for my family and friends and their unconditional love and support for me. I really feel like I have found the "true" people in life and I appreciate them more than they will every know.

I am thankful that this year is better than the last. That even though life has gotten harder, it has also gotten better. That I am more comfortable with who I am now, than I was before.

I am thankful that I found the love of my life. That the love I always dreamed about really exists.

I am thankful to be the mother of the most beautiful baby in the world. I am thankful she is happy and healthy. I am thankful she gives kisses, and laughs and has the cutest cheeks on earth. I am thankful for the person she has made me become. I am thankful I get to wrap my arms around her every day and kiss her cheeks. I am thankful for her.

I hope you all have a Happy Thanksgiving!!!!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Formspring Question: What is your typical makeup routine? And, do you have any "must have" products?

I put on Concealer if needed, then foundation, eye shadow, eye liner, mascara, lipstick then lip gloss. All the products I use on a daily basis are my must haves- they are:

Concealer: Bobbi Brown's Face Touch up stick

Foundation: Bobbi Brown's Skin Foundation (I just recently tried Natural Finish Long Lasting Foundation and really like that as well!)

Eye Shadow: Bobbi Brown's pink shimmer brick ( a few different shades to choose from can also be used for an all over glow)

Eye Liner: Bobbi Brown's metallic black gel eye liner

Mascara: CoverGirl Volume lash- I also like Dior show, but usually get cover girl out of convenience.

Lipstick: Mac Politely Pink

Gloss: Mac (it's a nude color but not sure of the name)

Ask me anything

Be Back Soon.

I took a bit of a breather- I needed a break. Life sped up so quickly.

I promose to catch you all up with the past few months in posts to come!

I'm coming back just in time for a nice Thanksgiving post- I'll leave you with a peak at Lils enjoying her FIRST Birthday Party (I can't believe it's already been over a year!!!)

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Saturday, July 3, 2010

Letters to Myself

Everyone else is doing it! Since this new trend of writing letters to one's self has come around, I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. I have tried to avoid it, because, well writing letters to my past self might be a tad painful. However, once I get something stuck in my mind I HAVE to talk about it or it just stays there and festers. Festering is never good.

Dear Holls- 12 years old:
When she asks you to eat pizza in the room with her, do it. You can watch the new episode of "Hey Arnold" another time. You'll regret not eating dinner with her that night, forever.

Dear Holls- Age 14
You are about to enter high school. Many of the people you meet in the next four years will still be there for you at your wedding. Take life slow, enjoy the fact you are ditzy and funny and smart and don't try to be someone you're not- it ends up getting you into trouble. You are charming the way you are... the sooner you learn that the better you feel. Like I said before many of the friends you make will be at your wedding... they like you for you no matter what.

Dear Holls- Age 16
Something happens this year that makes you lose your trust (in anyone and everyone). He gets help and you stay in touch and actually become/remain friends. What happened stopped being painful by the time you turn 17, so really, holding your trust hostage for the rest of your life is just plain over-dramatic (a trait about yourself you'll come to accept and love). Learn to let those walls down once someone has earned your trust. The longer you keep the walls up the longer and harder it is to take them down. Trust doesn't equal pain- the sooner you learn that, the better.

Dear Holls- Age 18
You have been through hell this past year... 50% of it is due to you making poor decisions 50% is due to people making up rumors. You get out of it alive. In fact you pass this hard ass test with flying colors. You are starting college and starting a whole new life! Forget about Mr.ohsowrongforyou- he is TOXIC and PSYCHO and won't matter by the time you are 19. Even though you have started to make some new friends, you don't forget about the old ones you did wrong too and still really care about. All it took was a simple "Happy Birthday" and she was back in your life. Everything works out in time. You two are like kindred spirits. She will be the first person you call when you find out you're pregnant and she will be the maid of honor at your wedding- you end up being closer than ever with her (and you thank your lucky stars everyday for that because she really is amazing)

Dear Holls Age 21-ish
Talk to her before you "move out" she'll listen. She cares. You can trust her. You'll regret not reaching out to her sooner. Even after all the drama and not speaking for awhile she'll congratulate you on your pregnancy. She'll continue to send you well wishes throughout your engagement, birth of your daughter and marriage and it means the world to you. She's a good person and someone you don't want to lose touch with.

I wrote a few more letters... however I feel that there haven't been enough years since, for me to really reflect. Maybe 5 years down the line I will revisit this again :)

Monday, June 21, 2010

McFatty Monday: FAIL

SOOO As most of you know I have been following the program from Jackie Warner's book. Well today I was supposed to start eating 100% clean until the weekend when I coudl have my two cheat meals.

Today is also J's bday. He wanted to go to a Japanese steakhouse for lunch... then he wanted baja fresh for dinner and a freaking COLDSTONE CAKE FOR DESERT!

I started the day off well... two eggs and water with lemon. As the day went on, hoever, it just went downhill, and I didn't work out. Tomorrow will be a new day and hopefully I will be able to begin.

Another issue I had was losing my contact... losing my contact means wearing my glasses and for those who have ever worked out with glasses it's not fun. Its so not fun that I didn't work out on bit. I could barely see (glasses are very outdated prescription) and it just wasn't gonna happen. I don't think it helped I literally stuffed my face with whatever I wasted this past weekend knowing I would be going clean this week. Oops.

OK enough complaining and giving excuses let me get to the goods.

Adding in the foods actually started to work with my body. After having to eat all of the food you add in, you don't really want much else. I even lost a few pounds (which were gained back this weekend) so I def suggest this as a way for people to ease into losing weight.

My goals for this week? Starting eating clean ASAP. I really wish we would have goen grocery shopping today because we have like no HEALTHY FOOD, but we have eggs, steel cut oat, frozen berries, and string cheese. I may have to try and survive on that until we go shopping and I can get more stuff.

Here's to being healthy and losing weight!!!

Friday, June 18, 2010

Wedding: The Sparkle

Who doesn't love some good old fashioned sparkle right? Here ya go kids!

The GORGEOUS earrings I got from Lulu Splendor an amazing esty seller who sold out of the earrings I wanted and then specially made and mailed them for me when I told her I HAD to have them for my wedding. She was amazing to work with.
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I got my necklace from TIGERLILLY JEWELRY. I had it custom made for my dress. This place was also really great to work with!

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I got my bracelet from this etsy shop. They do beautiful work!

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I just want to add that ALL of these pieces are gorgeous as pictures online, however in person they are breath-taking. I couldn't believe my eyes as I opened each one, I was truly amazed!

I know most people are allll about seeing the wedding rings (I know I am) so here are a few of my favs!

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Thursday, June 10, 2010

Wedding: Tradition

You know the saying: Something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue.

Here are the four items I wore for the big day!

Something Old: My grandmother's pin. The wedding was actually on her birthday! She passed away many many years ago, but I am happy I was able to have something of hers with me on the big day :)

(Sorry the pic is a bit blurry, I couldn't get a good shot of it)
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Something New: I had a bunch of things that were new, my dress, the jewelry but for the sake of this post I will use the gorgeous hairpins I got from TIGERLILLY:

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Something Borrowed: I borrowed one of Joe's Nana's favorite pins (thanks Missy :)) His grand parents were unable to make it to the wedding due to not being able to travel so it was nice to have a piece of them with us that day.

(Again, sorry, another crappy picture. I wish I would have remembered to get a picture of them the day of!)
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Something Blue: I had shoes custom made from Nina Shoes. I got them baby pink with navy blue knots:
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Monday, June 7, 2010

McFatty Monday: Week 1

Last week I mentioned reading Jackie Warner's new book This is why you're fat. Well this week I am officially starting her program. The first two weeks, you just add food to your regular diet. I have everything I need except Whey protien- so here are my food goals:

-Drink water, water, water (duh) and add in lemon juice. I love this, when I go out to eat I always get water with lemon so I can squeeze some of the juice into my water, it makes it so refreshing. Turns out doing this is also good for you! I had the hubs (still LOVE saying that :)) pick me up some fresh lemons, I'm not sure if the bottle of lemon juice have the same effect.

- Eat at least 2 eggs a day. This is no issue. I LOVE have eggs for breakfast. Jackie also suggests hard boiling eggs before hand and sticking two each in zip lock bags- then adding salt and pepper to taste for an easy on the go snack. I like that she allows the WHOLE egg- most programs suggest only white, and lets be real, the yolk is the best part!

- 2-3 cups of veggies- easy... got some yummy yellow and red peppers ready to be chopped in my fridge!

-2 whole fruits... this I need to work on. I usually only have one fruit a day AT MOST.

- 1 Whey protein shake. I still need to buy the Whey protein. I meant to this weekend, but we had stuff being built in our house, then we had to buy decorations for it all and yadda yadda yaddaaaa... anyways, I still need to get out and buy it.

- 1 cup oatmeal daily... all I have are steal cut oats so I need to make up a batch for the week today. Those things take FOREVER to make. If I can find the plain instant oatmeal I will def be switching to that.

As for exercise, this program calls for 20 mins of hard cardio 5 days a week, and 3 days of resistance training added to the cardio. I want to start the 30 day shred again today, but we got a new tv and it doesn't have a dvd player, and the one we have it downstairs soooo I may have to try it out on my comp- it's really the only way I'll get cardio in. I love to get it over with when Lils goes down for her morning nap, but my track record shows not working out till after 4pm usually so we'll see.

I also bought an eating clean cook book- Eating clean for dummies. It has some great recipes in it (that include meat thank goodness) so I am going to try and start meal planning for week 3 (first week of real clean eating)

Here's to being healthy and fit!!!!

Friday, June 4, 2010

Wedding: THE DRESS

So I FINALLY got all my pictures. The first set of discs I received had some issues so I had to get a new set sent to me, which took a few weeks. Now I get to start the fun process of making the album and showing off the pics. I thought what is a better way to start off then by showing off my dress? Enjoy!

The Designer:
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The Details:
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The Finished Look:
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There are more pictures to come!!!

Monday, May 31, 2010

McFatty Monday- "This is why you're fat"

So I feel like every time I post these days it's about finding some new way to be healthy, lose weight and tone up. Consider the past few months (since this whole thing started) my trial and error period. I have been trying to find what works for ME. I started out with great motivation and energy. As my wedding approached my stress levels increased and my desire to work out completely disappeared. I still don't have it back, but I am hoping to turn a new chapter in my life after my next grocery shopping trip. Each time I try something new I feel like I am getting one step closer to being able to maintain a healthy life style.

I am going to start eating clean. I have tried to avoid it because I didn't want to let go of certain foods, and because I was doing it alone. I need to get over myself and get real. I am sick of hating the way I look and feel. I need to do something about it, other than complain and stuff my face with more unhealthy foods. I need to get my energy levels up and work out and BE HEALTHY.

I got Jackie Warner's new book "This is Why You're Fat" I have already read through it and LOVE it. Normally I think books like this are fake, but for some reason this one really spoke to me (hey if it works who cares right?). I was a fan of Jackie on her show Work Out so I already respected her as a nutrition fitness professional before the book. Inside there are recipes, workouts, and lots of good information about why you are fat and unhealthy and how to stay thin and feel better. Overall it's just a fabulous book and I hope this is what really helps me to change my life.

Once I get all my food and get started I will get into more detail, for now I am celebrating Memorial day with family and going to try not to beat myself up about how I look.

I hope all of you have a great Memorial day! Here's to being healthy and looking great!!!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

I was supposed to walk around the lake...

Instead I got side tracked by South Moon Under, Barnes & Noble and Target. This shopping center is really nice and has a lake/pond you can walk around, paddle boat in, or feed the ducks. It's a really great to take the baby out for some fresh air.

I just got an umbrella stroller and this thing is amazing. It makes it soooo much easier to go run errands with the little cupcake.

AAAAAANYWAYS a new SMU opened in this shopping area and I just HAD to take a look inside. I didn't plan to shop, but I have been waiting for the grand opening and wanted to check the place out.

I fell in love. LOVE. The set up , the people, the clothes, accessories, bags EVERYTHING. In the fitting room area, if someone starts a room for you THEY WRITE YOUR NAME ON A MIRROR ON THE DOOR it is effing adorable. I didn't want to leave. Here is what I purchased:

This necklace:
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These earrings:
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This Hat (I have been looking for one of these FOREVER):
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Now I can't do a shopping trip without getting something for my baby girl!

I got her three dresses: This, This and This
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I also got some glitter gel pens in assorted colors (they don't just sell pink so I gotta buy the whole rainbow) and a hot pink journal from Barnes & Noble.

Lils was so great the whole day, and it was nice to be out with her without lugging the car seat around! Today was def a success :)

Monday, May 10, 2010

Getting back into it

Ok lovelies, Holls is back.

I took some time off, because... well I wanted to. I think this will also jump start some weight loss again.

I am going to continue meal planning and try to exercise more. The eating has been a bit challenging because I am the only one int he house dieting. J buys me healthy food, but there are other people in this house not on a diet and eating yummy fatty deliciousness. If everyone in the house was getting healthier it might be easy to stay on track. As for the exercise? I don't know why I am having SUCH a hard time with it. Especially because the last time I did the Shred, I felt more energized after the first work out. I'm just stuck in a rut. I need to get out of it- I am sick of having the way my body feels, and hate the way I have to "tuck" and "pull" and "squeeze" into clothes. I just want to be comfortable in my own skin.

So along with the meal planning and exercise I am going to start a food journal. I am going to make myself accountable. I have avoided journaling because I was HOPING to get by eating healthy with adding in 3 cookies here or . By writing down everything I HAVE to right down those food that "slip in" during the day and make my self accountable and realize that might be the reason I am not where I want to be.

I am sick of the flab. I want it gone once and for all. Just because I am a certain weight or size, does NOT mean it looks good in certain clothes or naked. I want to look good naked damnit!

I really really really hope I get it right one of these days... something HAS to stick. I want a lifestyle change. I want to be better for myself, for my husband (love saying that :)) and for my daughter.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Quickie post

SO I haven't been as active recently, but I PROMISE to get things rolling again soon. I am winding down from my wedding and am surprisingly still pretty busy.

I am anxiously awaiting the professional wedding photos... I can't wait to see them and show them to everyone!!!

I have recently tried to be more active on twitter, so you can always follow me on there if you want to keep up with my day to day randomness *note the twitter button right under the header :) * I got the app on my blackberry so it's much easier for me to keep up with! Still trying to figure it all out, but I figure with time I'll get the hang of it, haha!

I also started an account a so if you have ANY questions you want to ask me please feel free! Save me from being bored in the middle of the night and ask me some questions :)

Thanks lovelies and I'll be posting again soon!!!

Monday, April 26, 2010

McFatty Monday: I guess it worked!

I had my wedding this past weekend and once I get more pictures back I will post. I wanted to direct everyone to my photog's site because she put a few preview pics up :

Wedding preview

I was worried how I looked, I was worried on my days coming up that I wasn't skinny enough.

Looking at these picture I feel I was at a perfect weight. I don't know if it's because they are professional pics, or what but it was such a sense of relief (and of course excitement) I get to look back in my wedding day to beautiful amazing photos :)

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Lust List

1: A Cuff bracelet. Ever since I saw Lynn's cuffs on the OC housewives I have been OBSESSED:

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I love all of these cuff, they come from this etsy seller. If I could afford to buy all of them I totally would! They are great options for spring and summer time! Hell I'd well them year round if I could :)

2. A Mother's necklace. I really want one of these, maybe for mother's day or something. There are TONS of different styles out there.

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Monday, April 12, 2010

McFatty Monday- 2 Types of Stress People

There are two types of stress people... at least in this instance. People who don't eat when they are stressed and people who eat.

I am the latter. Wake up feeling under the weather? maybe a brownie will help. Something not go my way? Oh well a pack a starburst will surely be the answer.

Having things go wrong that you couldn't imagine go wrong a mere two weeks before my wedding? I'm going to buy out my local Dairy Queen and call it a weekend, K?

Long story story I just really wanted to lay in bed and pig out. I tried to keep on track (and on meal plan) however I had a few slip ups here and there. I am not too disappointed. I know myself and with the stress... well- I'm surprised (and thankful) I didn't go completely overboard.

I lost some o the weight I gained back (YAY!) and found some meals that I absolutely LOVE:

Tuna, peas and miracle whip.

Yogurt with a tsp of honey.

Cucumber salad with low fat fetta.

This week my goals are the same. Keep meal planning, keep trying to work out, keep trying to stay sane. I don't care WHAT we have to go through as long as the big day turns out perfect in the end!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

I wanna ROCK! Oops I mean Party!!!

Not Just any party... The Ultimate Blog Party 2010!!!!

Ultimate Blog Party 2010

If you are new to my blog HIIII!!!! I am a new mommy, and soon to be newlywed. I love all things pink and sparkly, and over all am a real girly girl. I am a self proclaimed shop-a-holic and beauty junkie. The past year has been a whirl wind of pregnancy, birth, engagement, mommyhood, and all over craziness! I wouldn't have it any other way though. I consider myself to be incredibly lucky to have found my perfect Mr. Right and have the most beautiful baby girl in the whole world! I hope you enjoy reading my blog and choose to stick around ;)

The Quest for the Perfect Nude Pump.

The must have shoe for this season is a nude pump. I prefer a peep toe pump to any other kind.

This is a bit lighter than your average nude, however I think it will go well with my skin tone (pale as casper). It's light, but not quite white, so I won't be getting evil stares for wearing this before memorial day or after labor day :)

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I love the platform front and the skinny heel!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

6 months!!

My oh my how time has flown. I look back and reflect on the past 6 months and it is really such a blur! So many things have changed, I have changed, it's just been an incredible roller coaster ride.

One of the things I would like to address is the post I made way back in the each months- I think around two months. I was saying how she could self sooth and use her hands and STTN. Um I might have been a BIT wrong. OK I was way off. At that time, although I thought I was sane, I was really a sleep deprived robotic mess. Pumping every three-four hours and just trying to survive colic and reflux alone left me so tired. Actually, I was EXHAUSTED. Like worn to the bone exhausted. In that crazy newborn phase haze I exaggerated a lot of her accomplishments. Yes she was "using her hands" but she hadn't really discovered them yet. Yes she was STTN but, well a lot of two month olds do then all of a sudden they regress to waking up every couple hours. I got excited and got ahead of myself.I look back and feel more grounded now- maybe I'm not, maybe I will look back a year from now and think " WTH was she talking about??" who knows.

So how is she doing now? She's awesome duh!!! No, really, she is doing great. She can roll over both ways, pass toys between hands, sit up unassisted for a short period of time and bear weight on her legs. She is doing the baby scoot, I know any week now all of a sudden I will look over and she will be crawling. She is laughing so much now, she is really such a happy baby (except when mommy puts her in the crib for bed time and she still wants to play).

We are still working on her sleeping. It's been tough. On average she sleeps about 4 hours at a time at most. RARELY I will get lucky and get a 6 hour stretch.

How's mommy doing? Fabulous! As some of you have seen I have also been dealing with losing the baby weight. It's not as easy to get motivated as one might think (even with a wedding approaching at light speed!) but I will save my rant for another post. Around the three month period I really started to enjoy being a stay at home mom. Her personality started to shine through, I could interact with her better, and it's all gone uphill from there. I mean life isn't always perfect- I still get frustrated at 330 AM being woken up 15 minutes after I've laid my head down. Being a mom is hard. Being a mom is also the most amazing thing I have a ever done.

Minutes after she was born:

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Minutes after waking up today:
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Monday, April 5, 2010

19 day to go!

I recently came across some information that would have been nice to have in Jan. It's my own fault for thinking I could work out and eat "my way" and still lose weight and keep it off.

I lost the weight. Then I started to gain a little ( I didn't gain it all back, but I gained a little). Wedding or no wedding my energy went WAY down. I wanted to work out, but the energy wasn't there. Last week I did some exercises with the resistance band and that's about it. I am very disappointed. I have 19 days left until my wedding and will always know that I did not give it 100%. I may have given 100% for a month and a 1/2... then I started to give 80% then 60% and so on. I hope to goodness I am being to hard on myself and look at my wedding pictures and feel relieved and proud.

Before having the baby I didn't anticipate how long it would take to really be able to work out. Even though they SAY you can work out at 6 weeks, unless you are used to working out all the time- it's really quite impossible. I was able to find the strength and energy to really work out when Lils was three months. Thinking back I should have realized I needed time for trial and error for my work out and diet plan. How could I really expect to get it right the first time?

So, recently I started chatting with some amazing woman who know the ins and outs of proper health and fitness. A nice little inside secret I have overlooked many times is meal planning. MEAL PLANNING! It's so freaking simple. Thinking about it now it just makes perfect sense. If I write out everything, it will probably help keep me on track! Seeing the list may help me stop before placing my hand in that cookie jar- or think twice before adding an extra snack. So this week I am planning out my meal and exercise and hope to goodness I follow it. I love the idea of picking everything out and having it all planned so when it comes time to eat I won't be so tempted to just snack around for an hour, I'll be able to use the list as my guide.

Goals for this week:
Start the Shred again- do this first thing in the morning (as in I need to this this right after I post)
Meal Plan
Oatmeal, Oatmeal, oatmeal.
NO SUGAR (this is the home stretch folks I just gotta give up the sweets)
Continue to use the resistance band (I can do this while watching TV)
Try to squeeze in another work out of pilates during Lils' afternoon nap.

Here's to being healthy and losing weight!

Monday, March 29, 2010

McFatty Monday- Final dress fitting!

Just a reminder you can find McFatty Monday here if you want to participate!!

So now my weight is kind of fluctuating. This is exactly how I was before I got pregnant. I have a 5 pound weight range I am always in. So even though I have reached my lowest pre-preg weight, I have also gone up a few pounds.

To be honest I don't see it making a HUGE difference. I can still SQUEEZE into pre-preg work pants if I absolutely have to which is quite an accomplishment.

It's funny, I remember Heidi Klum's response when someone asked her if they could look like her after having a baby. She said " it depends on how you looked before" this statement couldn't be more true... for me at least. I am EXACTLY how I was before getting pregnant. Like it's almost creepy how similar I am. I hope to get my work out back up to speed ( deja vu anyone?) you'd think with my wedding coming up I would be working out extra hard. However, the closer it gets the less I want to work out. I wish I would have worked out my upper body more (but it'ss so weak, it was really hard!) because I still have the "boob fat" that sticks out when you wear a tight strapless. I am hoping my long hair will conceal this- even if it's just for the ceremony.

I have 2/3 of my wedding jewelry for the fitting today- I am excited to see how it looks together! I am also excited to see how the new alterations look.

So onto my work out goals for the week:

For the ab separation I had to do 10 special sit ups an hour for each hour I was awake. I am going to try and do this and well as other exercises. It might be hard to do every hour I am awake but if I do even half that I think it will still bring good results. I also plan to do my pilates DVD at least 3-4 times this week.

Here's to being healthy!!!

Friday, March 26, 2010

Dear Cupcake

Dear Cupcake,

Mommy was mad last night. Or rather, early this morning. Due to your recent playtime of midnight I have gotten used to falling asleep between 1 and 2 AM. This night as soon as I laid my head down on my pillow I hear you start to stir. The stir turned into an all out meltdown because I could not step out of bed fast enough to feed you. Mommy's so tired, baby. It's been months of getting a few hours of sleep at a time (except on very rare occasion) so I huffed and puffed and stomped to get you out of your crib.

However, after you had finished eating I couldn't move. Normally I am quick to put you back in your crib and hope to fall asleep within the hour. This time something was different. You were so content in my arms, and I was so content to kiss your head and snuggle you close. I wanted to sneak you into the big bed, crawl into your crib, I just wanted to stay near you. I knew I needed to go to sleep, it would only be a few hours until I was up again and I had so much to do the next day. I had to work out, clean, and get all dolled up to celebrate a friends birthday. I HAD to get some sleep, but I also HAD to keep holding you. So I did just that. I watched your peaceful face as you took each breath, stroked your head and ran my fingers through the one patch of hair you have on your head. Thinking about it now makes me miss you and you are only in the next room.

So mommy was mad... but your sweet face some how melted all that anger and exhaustion away.

I love you baby girl.

Monday, March 22, 2010

McFatty Monday- 5 Months and I Did it!

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That me! I'm screaming " I'm finally back at my pre-pregnancy weight!!!"

OK... not really. I'm actually screaming " Take me home tonight" at a bar during my bach party- but nonetheless still at the coveted pre-preg weight.

I am happy to be at the weight I am but am a little disappointed with the progressive loss of steam I had the past couple of weeks. I went from working out 5 days a week to 4 to 3 then sometimes even 2 and now back to 3. I'd really like to work out 5 times a week again. I think I would see even better results. SO I am still working on it!

I've also lost sight of the whole " be healthy for life" thing. I think that's what really helped me stay motivated in the beginning and ever since valentines day I haven't been as healthy as I want to. I have had a couple of events where I just wanted to indulge! I eat week during the week but on the weekends I would just go out of control. Things have quieted down a bit and besides my big 2-5 there are no more events until the wedding. I'd like to eventually be able to make healthy choices 7 days a week instead of just 5. I know I can do it if it happens gradually maybe eat healthy all week and 1 healthy dinner on the weekends and go from there. We'll see!

For now I am pretty happy with how I look and pleased I still have a few months before bathing suit season!

Here's to being healthy and losing weight!!!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Bridal Shower!!!

I had my Bridal Shower and Bach party this weekend and let me tell you it was a BLAST.

My Maid of Honor is pretty much the BEST of all time and I seriously think she needs to go into party planning. She has set up both my bridal and baby shower both of which have been amazing. My bridesmaids are also so awesome for helping to set everything up and make it all perfect. I couldn't ask for better friends and family!

The Cake!

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My mom and me... and champagne spillage :)

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My gorgeous baby girl

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Me, my mom and future mother in law

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Me and Lils

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Me and Lils again

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The Bridal Party!!!

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Champagne and Mimosas!!! This was a party favorite :)

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Cheers! Me and my Maid of Honor

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Monday, March 8, 2010

McFatty Monday 3 MORE POUNDS

3 more pounds to go folks. That's right 3 MORE POUNDS until I am at my pre-pregnancy weight. This will DEF be attainable by the time of the wedding.

I am hoping to go full force again starting this week. I know I keep saying that but it's better than giving up completely! I have just felt so tired and lazy recently. I only worked out two times last week.

This week I would like to go back to "2 a days" I really should be taking advantage of the time and flexibility I have to work out while I still can. I also still need to tone up my upper body... it's so hard to put more focus on my lower body because it's stronger. My arms have NEVER been strong. They are little twigs, but due to the lack of tone I have a bit of that boobs fat around my under arms. I know I should have been working harder... but it's hard!

I am no longer setting a deadline of March 29th. My deadline is the week of April 24th. I found out that about 20-25 pounds is what makes difference in dress sizes. I don't think I'll be losing another 10-15 before then.

Here's to being healthy and losing weight!!

Saturday, March 6, 2010

The addiction just gets worse.

I thought I loved shopping before I got pregnant.

Having a baby opened up a WHOLE new world for me. Baby clothes, gear, diaper bags, nursery items and other misc. products.

Designing the nursery is something all mothers get into, it sotra helps to pass the time while waiting for baby (especially in those dreaded last few weeks). Seeing the room come together just adds that much more excitement!

I recently indulged in a new crib bedding set. We bought our first set before we found out the sex of the baby. It's an under the sea theme and I LOVE it but... THERE'S NO PINK! Lils' room is all pink, pink walls, pink changing table cover, pink letters... she needed a pink bedding set to go along with it:

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I have been sooo picky trying to find the perfect pink bedding set. Most of the ones I have seen always have some odd color thrown in, I couldn't believe it was so hard to find something simple. It's a good thing I waited because I was able to get this at 50% off :)

I can't wait for it to come in so I can set it all up!!!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Designer stuff for 1/2 the price!

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Being a stay at home I want to find every way possible to save, but I don't want to skimp on my expensive style!

The places I shop carry designer clothes, jewelry, make-up, baby items and more for CHEAP!

I recently bought a pair of Seven's skinny jeans for UNDER $100.00!!!

I bought a new 4 piece crib set also for under $100.00 talk about a deal!

If you want in on this just leave me your e-mail in my comments and I'll give you the scoop on how to get these amazing deals!

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Monday, March 1, 2010

McFatty Monday: Diastasis????

OK, so I have been obsessing over my stomach getting flatter... or the lack there of.

After working out for three days last week and getting frustrated with how my stomach looked during the ab work I went to the computer and did some research.

Diastasis, or separation of abs was an explanation that matched my symptoms. I took the diagnostic test and felt the gap was big enough. Now, I didn't get a doctor to look at it so I could have misjudged it. Nevertheless I spent the last couple days on the floor ever hour doing at least ten of the ab exercises recommended to bring the abs back together. Things feel normal now and I need to jump back in to working out.

I have my first dress fitting for the wedding today. I am 10 pounds lighter and at least a size smaller... I am excited to see how it looks!!

Monday, February 22, 2010

McFatty Monday... I've been avoiding you...

It's McFatty Monday time! Check it out here

Last week I didn't participate. I was ashamed. Seriously, I'm not being over dramatic here. I was really ashamed. This weight loss and exercising thing has become such an important aspect of my life, any deviation from my plan puts me in a funk.

First it was the blizzard of 2010 part 2. This meant J would be home from work three days of out and week and T would be here one of those days. Working out only happened two days that week. It was also valentines day weekend and I thought it would be a good idea to bake cookies and make truffles.

Second, last week, I don't know what happened, I only worked out three times. I was exhausted. I was breaking down. Seriously, I guess baby's aren't the only ones who go crazy if you mess with their schedule. I was freaking out about last week, freaking out over my lack of sleep, freaking out about being in my wedding dress and looking less than perfect, freaking out about how the next week my schedule would also be tampered with. Didn't people realize I needed to work out at a specific time and if I can't do it then it probably won't get done?!?!?!?!

My sanity was definitely questioned last week. I don't think it helped only getting three hours of sleep at a time, thank to my lovely daughter who doesn't understand the meaning of beauty sleep. I honestly had to force myself to stop freaking out and to breath and take it one day at a time or I was going to continue making myself miserable and would probably end up cutting myself off from the world until I was able to get my body in the shape I wanted it.

But the world doesn't work like that. LIFE doesn't work like that. I have to learn to go with the flow and adapt to change- not freak out every time i have an obligation that happens to fall into my work out time. So, I'm working on it... I know I won't change over night.

So let's get to the good stuff. Goals:

Pilates work out during baby's morning nap. It's another 20 min workout. I've done pilates in the past and LOVED it.

Start 30 day shred over again. Work on proper form. Work on doing the work out with Natalie instead of Anita. Also, last month I switched out some of the arm moves for butt and thigh moves. This time I am going to follow it exactly. Last week was the first week of re-starting it and even though i had already gotten through level 3, level 1 was NO walk in the park... especially the arm stuff. I did notice I was stronger though- so that's always good.

I have 5 more pounds to lose to get to pre-preg, and to be honest I wouldn't mind losing 6 more after that but that will probably have to wait until after the wedding. I have just about a month until my last dress fitting, after that I just need to maintain until after the wedding.

Here's to keeping my sanity, being healthy and losing weight!!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Getting to Know You Sunday!!!

Getting to know you Sunday comes from here- play along!

The questions..

1. How often do you wash/change your sheets? Every couple of weeks. That reminds me, they need to be washed- ever since I have become a mom the laundry seems endless!!!

2. When is your birthday? April 2nd. I LOVE it.

3. Have you ever met a bloggy friend in real life? No, but there are a few I;d really like to meet.

4. Brad Pitt or George Clooney? Hmmm I used to love brad Pitt but now neither of them seem appealing. I'd take J over them both any day ;)

5. If you could change one thing about your body what would it be? Just one? I'd start with the night like spare tired around my waist- as long as we are there I'd like to get rid of the stretch marks too.

6. How often do you wash your hair? Evey few days- it's not good to wash it every day.

7. Do you have pets? My chew chew- she's a doxie and I loooove her. She's my other baby :)

8. How many social networks do you belong to..if you had to give up one, what would it be? Just fb I think. Yea I'd give it up if there was a better way for me to keep in touch with people and be nosey.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

1 Year Ago Today

1 year ago today I found out I was pregnant.

The week before I had been feeling hungover, sick, I couldn't eat and the medicine I was taking wasn't working. In the weeks before I noticed I wasn't able to drink alcohol like I used to, I could barely finish a drink with out feeling sick or tired. I have no clue what was going on, I thought it was part of "getting older." Being pregnant never crossed my mind because I wasn't throwing up in the morning. I never got morning sickness- I was just feeling crappy all day. Little did I know that not everyone gets morning sickness, some people have no symptoms at all!

When I got the BFP I was 8 weeks along. I remember feeling so awful I didn't know sooner- I had been drinking alcohol and way too much caffeine. I was on medications that you can't take while your pregnant. It really worried me. The doctor reassured me that as long as i stopped everything immediately the baby should be fine. I almost died at the prospect of not having any caffeine- how the hell was I going to get through the day? Fortunately you are usually allowed about a cup of coffee a day give or take :)

Thinking back to that day I REALLY had no clue what I was about to go through. Like, I almost feel embarrassed about the lack of information I had. Thank gawd for the internet or I really would have been lost.

A year ago today I couldn't have imagined I'd be two months away from my wedding. I knew J and I would get engaged and marry at some point, but I had no clue 2010 would be the year I became a Mrs.

This year has been one long, crazy, awesome, roller coaster ride, and it's just the beginning ;)

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Sunday, February 14, 2010

Happy Love Day!!!

I woke up today to J telling me him and T were going somewhere, but they couldn't tell me where. I was also instructed NOT to eat.

When they got home they brought in a wonderful breakfast and I got gorgeous roses. They are currently in the fabulous crystal vase my aunt and uncle got us for our engagement gift :)

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I also decided to make Oreo truffles for everyone. I got the recipe from here. If you make these I suggest having something to keep then in that fits in the fridge- my started to melt a bit if I left them out too long.

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Lils got the playskool glow worm and T got some new bakugons!

Don't worry J wasn't left out. For every day of February I send him a prettied up picture with picnik and told him one thing about him that I loved... leading up to today where I name the number 1 thing. I'll have to keep it between us though- it got pretty personal :) The point is, I love him and I wanted him to know specific things that I love about him. Everyone loves a compliment and it was a fun surprise for him at work. Yay for love!

Hope everyone has a great Valentines Day!!!

I have these fun questions to answer- if you want to play along go here, grab and answer then link up!

1. Favorite Valentine's candy? Anything mint chocolate!
2. Pink or red? PINK
3. Will you be doing anything to celebrate today? We went out to dinner with the kids last night :)
4. Do you put up Valentine's decorations? No... now that you mention it, that's a great idea for next year.
5. What does Valentine's Day mean to you? Expressing how much you love family and friends.
6. Would you rather, candy, or a night out? All three... I'm greedy :)
7. Sexy lingerie or Sexy lingerie!
8. Do you say Valentine's Day or Valentime's Day? Valentine haha

Friday, February 12, 2010

Red Velvet Cookies!

In honor of V-day I decided to do some baking! I made red velvet cookies with cream in the middle and got the recipe from here

Mine are no where near as pretty as hers BUT I gave it a shot.

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Here's the lovely dough. I used red velvet cake mix, but only added two eggs and a 1/2 cup of butter- at first I didn't think it was right but after a few minutes of mixing (with a mixer) the consistency became less dry and more "dough" like

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I made mine bigger than what the recipe says, they should actually be at least 1/2 this size. I found the dough to be really really sticky!

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Here are the cookies after about 13 mins in the oven!

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This is the cream cheese frosting. It calls for a whole brick of cream cheese, some vanilla, more butter (I can feel the weight gain already) and confectioners sugar.

Wait for it... waaaaait for it...

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Ta-Da!!!! My cookies are MUCH bigger than they should be and we found out that in this case bigger is not better. I ended up cutting the cookies into fours so they were smaller. This this recipe makes about 24 cookie and 12 when you put them all together.

I encourage you guys to make these and let me know what you think! They are super cute for v-day, but def need to be smaller. The cookie is so rich it was hard to finish a big one. Making these bite size is ideal :)